The Sun And The Moon

"What did we just do?!"
- Pierre Gasly (2020 Italian Grand Prix, which he won)

     That is what I'm feeling right now. Still unbelievable.

     Hello guys and gals. I'm still tired of what I have done this Sunday. A simple laundry and some brushing in our kitchen. Even if I'm exhausted, I'm here to tell you some story. For this blog, I will give you my updates with my blooming relationship with my blind date companion. This might be one if not the best weeks of my life. I don't want to have a longer intro so, without further ado, let's get it.

     What a week for us. Let's start with the sad one. This blog is supposed to be titled "Back To Square One". Why you asked? She said heartbreaking things to me. Not just that, she said it on G Mail, of all the websites, because she blocked me on Messenger. And of all the days, she said it on our first week of friendship. One day before this happened, I observed that she don't want to talk to me. She didn't reply. Yeah, I know she is busy but, every time I messaged her, she replies back. Little did I know, she wrote a spoken word poetry that she joined. That poem, it's all about yours truly because she has feelings for me (shocking right?). And then, she said in G Mail that she has feelings for me, and she will leave me because she is thinks that she will be heartbroken. She also said that she is happy on my side that she realized that she will gonna be hurt on the long run. In short, she loves me, but she is afraid of my past. 

"If you love me, Why you let me go?!"
- Coldplay (Violet Hill, 2008)

     Well, I'll be honest, I reacted normal. I can't believed that she loves me back real and true. It's not just fake love, it's real, genuine, whatever you call to a non fake thing. But then I realized, I felt super duper sad. It's disheartening to see. I'm truly gutted because of that. It really makes my body heavy. I'm so frustrated that I said the F word to my friend. I'm super disappointed to myself, until she said...

"I'm not used to not talking to you anymore."
- The Girl (just last Thursday)

     I shivered when I read that. And that is where the fun begin. It's amazing to see that a girl is in love with you. After that, we talked and we messed up with each other. She said that she will unblock me on Messenger if we will be in a relationship. And then she asked if I have Telegram or Instagram, which I have. The only difference of that two is I just signed up in Telegram just last Friday, and in Insta, as the gen Z calls it, I have it for a year now. (Please follow me. People that follow me there are either people that wants me to invest in Cryptocurrency {which I'm not interested} or dummy account of sexy women {yuck} so please follow me) Then, we talked there. In fact, we have a 30 plus minute of video call Friday night, which I enjoyed a lot. She really enjoys talking to me, even if I'm tensed and I animate my stories (which makes my phone shake rapidly). That's it. I hope she will not stop loving a weird 18 year old guy from Indang, Cavite. She is now part of my future plans. I wish I am part of her too.

     Also, I wrote this blog to answer her spoken word poetry that she made for a contest because of me. Sadly, she lost but, it's alright. She is the best in my eye. That is the most awesome thing that I receive from a girl (except my mom, my sister and my cousins). Okay, my main answer on her is don't bother on my past. I didn't bother on her past (even if she just came from a relationship that lasted for 4 years). I hope she will understand that when I'm in love with someone, I made a point that she and only she that I will gonna love. She is not just part of my present, she is part of my future now. She is now part of my plans for the future. Remember this, I only think 6 things for now, God, myself, my family and friends, my ambitions in life, my sports teams (you can't imagine me thinking about the Lakers right now), and you. Also, I really love the fact that you compared me to the sun. It really screams that I'm hot (just kidding). In seriousness, I will always bring sunshine to your life. I hope unlike the moon, you will not hide to me. I think you are a flower that blooms when I'm there, your sunshine. Interestingly, you compared me to a sun, and then my NBA jerseys that I have, which is 2, is from a team that is called the Suns. I think it's just a coincidence, but it's great to think of that. My message to you is I hope that you are alright. I know you are sick in the past days. I wish good health. Stay positive. Wish for a better grades for all of us. I love you.

     Lastly, believe in good karma. Look, the things that I receive to her in the past days are the things that I did to my past crushes. She really returned the favor of anything that I have done to all of them. I think God convinced me to participate in that blind date so I could meet her and return my efforts. That's all.

     Thank you for reading. I hope you will gonna continue to support me in this. Wish me luck. God less you and your family. Goodbye. See you in the next blog. Adios.

Your Sunshine,

Ramueeeeeeeeel