Goodbye Love
Time can't erase the things we said
Shall we start?
My mind and my heart are not in a good shape right now. She broke up with me unexpectedly. Yes, technically. Why? We both have feelings for each other. And it ended. To be honest, I really don't want to tell this, because it could be a one-sided story. I still don't know why did she do it. It is super hard for me to tell this story because I'm still devastated. I lost my sanity. It really removes all my happiness in my body. All the hopes and dreams that we shared are now gone. I feel guilt, regret, and despair. I don't know why you will do it to the person that you love.
I'm super disappointed. I don't want to be angry with her because the reason why she left is me. It all comes down to me. I know that even if I sacrificed my happiness for her, it's not enough or it is way too much to give. I think I love her harder to the fact that she is like a hostage to my love. I also give all my love to her even though there is uncertainty if we will last long. I think I should not breach her privacy when she needed it. I hope I didn't say some bad words to her. I'm feeling sorry that I lost my love due to her quitting on me. I hope if there will be a time that there will be a girl that will love me, I wish she will not hurt me. My heart is too broken to endure another major heartbreak.
My message to you is I hope you are doing fine. I wish you well. I hope you will gonna find a boy that will love you the most. I wish he will fix your heart that I break even though I don't know what did I do. I also hope that you will not do to other boys what did you do to me. If you will gonna promise a thing, I wish you stand for it. I know, I was the reason why you left, but you promised some things to me. I hope next time, you will fulfill your promise. I have no intentions of ruining your life. This is just how I feel. It's a blessing that I have met you. You erased all of my doubts about my efforts not being returned. You are the reason why I feel that I can still surprise myself. Thank you for making me happy. I still can't forget the day you say you love me too. I hope that it could be back but, it will not come back anymore. Thank you for loving me. I love you. Goodbye moon.
Before I end this blog, I will gonna announce the future of the blog. In the next month, maybe the 8th of April, my birthday, you can expect a rebrand of my website and my Facebook. You could see a new profile picture on my FB page, new colors, and a new about page on my website. Also, about the contents of my blog, you will gonna expect more personal blogs. I will minimize my blogs about love and will focus on life itself. You can also expect a Filipino languages blog from the week of the Philippine Independence Day (June 12) to the last week of August. This could also start a change of scenery that I really need at this time. So for now, I will gonna have a blogging break so I could focus on our midterm exam and for the blog refreshment. To end, I will gonna share lyrics from a song by an Irish band called The Script. Adios.
"Where's the "good" in "goodbye"?Where's the "nice" in "nice try"?
Where's the "us" in "trust" gone?
Where's the "soul" in "soldier on"?
Now I'm the "low" in "lonely"
'Cause I don't own you only
I can take this mistake
Your Sun,
Bry
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