Collateral Damage: A Confession Blog

     It's all because of Taylor Swift recreating a Taylor Swift song…

     Hello guys. Good day. I'm back like I never left. I'm here to confess something to y'all. I'm sorry if it is messed up, because it will be but try to understand what I'm saying. As always, I hope you will gonna have a great time in reading this blog. So without further ado, let's do this.

     Last Saturday, just like all of us, I also listened to Taylor Swift's new album called Red: Taylor's Version. I haven't heard and watched All Too Well but, I have listened to two of the album's song, "Everything Has Changed" (with the always amzing Ed Sheeran) and "The Last Time" (with Snow Patrol's frontman Gary Lightbody), basically my favorite song of her. I have a great time hearing the two songs again but, when "The Last Time" has ended, I remember a thing…

     I became different after that one Friday night.

     If you are still not aware, I was coming off the most heart breaking rejection that I ever encountered in my life. And, I'm still can't get over it even if it happened months ago. After that night, I observed that I became different. Not for the better, but for the WORST. 

     I can't elaborate all of the things that changed on me but, I will try. First, I somehow had a hard time to focus. I have more focus in my gadgets than in other things such as our house. I mean, as a college student, you should do that so you can't miss out on the updates of your professors. But, the professors at Cavite State University are teachers who understands you, unlike what people have ranted, so I shouldn't do that. But the problem is that I always wait for someone who will message me, and that is her. And it somehow hinders my productivity. Next, I am more irritable. Like, I don't wanna be screamed by my mom and my sister. If they did, I will be angry and frustrated on myself. Next is I somehow think that bad things will always happen. I have difficulties in having a positive attitude. I sometimes think the worst on a situation. Lastly, I think that the world is against me. Since that Friday night, I observed that we are more unlucky. Weeks later, my dad suffered injuries in a motorcycle accident. Thank God that it's not that gruesome but it almost emptied our wallets. We always end up having no money. I think that the karma that I got on that night passed on to my family. I think that my efforts are disregarded by the world. She even said that it isn't wrong, but when I looked back at it, I think that I have done worse than I thought.

     Well, there is positive part on negative things. I want to treat people positively. I don't want people to experience what to me so I will be more welcoming and more friendly. Even if it's hard, I will always think positively so I could pass it to people. Like example, I'm a leader of a group now in one of my subjects. I'm trying to build chemistry and to always answer their questions and chats. I think I could be a better person in doing that.

     Before I end this blog, I want to clarify things. Please, don't blame the girl that rejected me. She is still a friend of mine. I think she do what she should do and I think I'm just an emotional guy. Also, if she will gonna read this, I hope that she will not feel slandered by this. I just want to tell stories. I also don't want you to feel that I am "pavictim" or sorts. It's just what I feel. Sorry that you will gonna feel that.

     As always, I hope you will gonna appreciate and love my blogs. Take care. God bless you and your family. Peace. Love. And if you still don't know why this blog is existing, just scream (1, 2, 3, blow):

     It's all because of Taylor Swift recreating a Taylor Swift song…

Adios.