Grad Pic

     Hello guys. I'm back after weeks to share something. I'm sorry that I have no blog posts in the past weeks because I became busy at home and school. I'm still sad, what do you expect. I don't want this introduction to be super long, so let's do this without further ado.

    Yesterday, we talked for the first time since I think, April. We talked about the plans for the graduation pictorial, hence the title (it is short for Graduation Picture). I talked about how much is it (it is ₱600 full package. The package included are the frame, make-up, and wallet shots, with additional fees for creative shots {UPDATE: it's now only ₱580}). Then she said that she will gonna take some videos for her Immersion subject. By the way, I have uploaded my Immersion video on Facebook. You should check it out. You don't need it like or love reacts that video because it's not needed for my grades. I just to share that video with all of you. And then comes 10:00 P.M. I said to her that I am afraid of saying some things, that she will be angry with me, and I have doubts about myself because it is always happening to me. She said that it's okay and she will not be angry about a thing that she doesn't know. And then, I said that I have deeper feelings for her (you know, the "more than friends" thing). And then she said that it's okay and she will not be angry but, she said that she doesn't have the same feelings for me (💔💔💔). I said that I am afraid to tell my feelings and I'm still afraid even if I'm used to be rejected. She said sorry because she felt that she is too straightforward and she doesn't want me to hope for something. And she said sorry multiple times. And then I was shocked on the next thing that she did, she comforted me. She forgets that I have deeper feelings for her and just straight up became a friend that is there when you have a hard time. She also felt bad too so she comforted me. I said a bold statement that:

"I am more worth it as a friend, not as a boyfriend."

which for her is a great thing. She said that it's not the right time to have a boyfriend and we should prioritize studying before we could have a significant other. The good part of this story is I now know that we will study at the same college, Cavite State University-Main Campus in Indang, Cavite to be exact.

    Goodness, mate. I am still sad, even if it's happened two days ago (this happened Friday and I started writing this on Saturday and ending it on Sunday). The both of us feel bad. I hoped and I think that is normal, but I can't believe what happened. I want to thank our common friend who helped me so we could talk. I also want to thank the Supreme Student Government President of Tagaytay City National High School who happens to be my former classmate. If not because of you, this will never happen. The takeaway from this is she is super kind and just like her looks, her heart is beautiful. I wish more people are similar to her. I wish we could both find the right people for us but, for now, we should prioritize our studies, family, and friends.

    Before I end this, I want to give a shoutout to my Grade 10 crush who graduated yesterday. Congratulations to you. As always I hope you will appreciate and enjoy this blog. Thank you for reading. See you at the next one. Adios.

😞😞😞

Yout Friend,

Ramueeeeeeeeeel