Bad Timing

 “There is no such thing as bad timing. Just weak people.”
― Iveta Cherneva (source: goodreads.com)

    Hello guys. After a long pause, I am back for my 50th blog. Actually, this will be my 48th published blog because I still have 2 drafts, one is about the Cleveland Browns and how I became a fan (you will gonna expect that September 12, 2021, the first Saturday of the NFL season) and the other one is about Kobe Bryant (you will gonna expect that Mamba Day 2021). As for this blog, this will be all about bad timing and how I regret it. Like in my other blogs, I hope you will enjoy this one so without further ado, let's do this.

    In all honesty, I'm not good at timing. In games, in life, and the worst part, in love. I guess you are familiar that I am too weak in terms of love because my confidence level when my crush is around will hit rock bottom. In short, I'm shy of my feelings. An example of this is to my crush right now. I am always the first guy who will arrive at our room. Sometimes, she will arrive second along with my LGBT friend or with her boyfriend (they broke up now). In some instances, we are the only students in our room and we will wait for about 10 or 20 minutes for another student to arriving in our room. And still, I never said my true feelings to her. I'm aware that she knows and she observes that I have feelings for her, but not the deeper ones. The factors that affect that are the fact that she has a boyfriend and doesn't want to ruin their relationship. Also as I mentioned earlier, I'm shy towards my feelings and I am afraid of her family because they look like a conservative family. And I have doubts of myself that I will look like a weirdo if I will gonna do that. And now I think, I look like that because I always chat with her even if she is not active or busy. I always bother our friend so we could talk about the fact that I am giving that certain friend answers to our module. When I think about this, I felt embarrassed that I've done that to no avail and regret my decision to hide my feelings. I think, I somewhat look like a dumb guy that wants attention.

    Well, my message to her is I have deep feelings for her. I'm sorry that I never said this to her back when the world is normal and we will always be the first students there. I regret that I never said this to her back then. I'm also sorry that I always bother you in chat. Lastly, I just want to say that I really love you from my bottom of my heart (and my hypothalamus).

    Oh yeah. Another love blog for you. If you have time, I wish you will give me some advice on how I will face this. Friends or enemies, even my exes (if you will call that "ex"). I wish you will help me. I also want to give a shoutout to my former classmates from Olivarez College that are inches away from graduation. Don't bother, our graduation will be in July so just wait. As always, I hope you will gonna appreciate and enjoy my blogs. God bless you and your family. Peace. Love. See you on the next blog. Adios.

Your Loving Friend,

Ramueeeeeeeeeel