Forgetting Past and Welcoming A New Start

“Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny.”

― Steve Maraboli (source: goodreads.com)

    Good day guys. I'm back with another blog for you. To be honest with you, I feel exhausted and I still have a video to shoot and summative test that to be answered so fight fight fight. Well, this is one of my media to expose my exhaustion. I'm here to tell you what happens when you talk to your former crush. Again, to be honest, it is still not sinking in, but I hope you will learn from my story. 

    It's just a usual Tuesday morning. I am waiting for the weekly video conference with our adviser, which by the way I missed because my laptop hangs. After I joked about it to the people who've attended that video conference, I have an idea to send one of my blog posts to my ex-crush when I was a junior high school because well, it's just past Valentine's so why not. And then, the roller coaster has started. I've sent it to her. My belief is she will not see that and will disregard my message forever, but in a few minutes, she replied (man, that is too unexpected). She is I think happy when she saw that I've message based on what is her first reaction. And then she thinks that it is all about my friend that has the same surname as me. And then, she realized that it is all about her. I observed that she became sad and feel sorry. To be honest, when I am writing that blog post, I never realize that she will feel sorry because when I wrote that, I still have anger on her. And then, she said sorry to me and she appreciates all of my efforts that I have done before. She also said that she is guilty of all of the things and the best part is she wants to become friends with me, which I accept 100%. She also said some stuff like what happened to us in a nearby cafe at our school. The better part is she thanks me and my mom. She wishes me good luck in our life. On my side, I also said sorry too because just like what I have said earlier, I never realize that she appreciates all of my efforts. I never thought that before. I was too happy about this I (1) I injured myself tripping on our wall and (2) I can't sleep that night thinking of what happened. 

    My thoughts on this are it completely erased all of my anger towards her. I've realized that she is also kind too. I know our goodbyes are not that good but it changed because of this. Also, because of what happened, I became happier. If you don't know, we are in self-isolation right now because 1 of my Tito and 2 of my cousins have COVID 19 and to be honest, our barangay is not helping all of us so I need some happiness and in an unexpected turn, it became my source of happiness. Lastly, I realize that blogging could help erase some negativity. I wish I could write some more because I want to reconcile with my other former classmates.

    I hope all of you will gonna this. I love making this because of the people that are appreciating my hobby. When I started writing this blog post, I feel exhausted. But now, my feelings became better. I am ready again to face what life will gonna give me. God bless you and your family and just like what she said, continue to learn and grow.

Your Guy,

Ramueeeeeel

(Post Credit: I've decided that this will be the last post about her. Next, I will write about my elementary days. That is the most underrated thing in my life.)