I Don't Know

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      "If heaven's grief brings hell's rain, then I'd trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday (I know I'm bad news, I saved it all for you) For just one yesterday, I want to teach you a lesson in the worst kind of way, Still I'd trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday (I know I'm bad news, I saved it all for you) For just one yesterday."

- Fall Out Boy featuring Foxes (Just One Yesterday, 2013) 

    That is my feeling right now. To be honest, I am sad. My emotions this past days are down, up, and down again. From the first blog to this, there are too many things that changed. I want to share to you why I'm sad. I'm not really feeling good like I should (no pun intended).

    Well I am sad because of her, my crush and my bestfriend. These past days, she didn't really talk to me, except for studies. Before, every hi, there is hello. Now, every hi means you will wait three days before she reply. I know she has a work but, sometimes she has a green dot on her profile pic that means she is active in messenger. But then, she still don't answer. I want to be angry but, why I should be angry? Unlike her, I have no work and is not busy while she, she is working hard not just for herself but for her family too. Why I should be angry, Even if I will lose in this because I'm just sitting pretty writing essays while her she is working. And I can't be angry to her, why? One is I'm just her friend, not a significant other but, only a FRIEND and two, I can't be angry because I LOVE her. I don't want to be angry to the people that I love because I will lose on that. In fact, I said to my homies that she is more beautiful than those girls who is in TikTok

    She said this before, she really said before that don't hope I will be hurt and brokenhearted. And what did I do, I still hope. I still hope that we could be boyfriend and girlfriend but, she is right, she is absolutely right. I still hope but in the end of the day, I STILL DON'T REACH HER STANDARDS. I think I only have a 0.000001% on her. I saw that she changed her social media relationship to "In a relationship" (I don't know if it's true {and she just doing what I am doing}).

    Girl, please, talk to me. I beg you. If you want to say something please say it to me. Even if you say something bad to me, I will not be angry. I am used to it. All of the people I know has said bad thing to me. Please, talk to me. I Love You.

Your Friend,

Ramuel

(P.S: My friends talk to me. I am really sad)
(Post Credit: Is this the end?)

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