To Be Honest: A Healing Process

 “In the depths of sorrow, we will eventually find an unwavering light.” 
– Unknown (Source: 
brightdrops.com)

    Hello guys. Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there. Today, I'm here to share something serious with all of you. You know, what do you expect from me? Joke. I'm sorry if this will be as messed up as my sister's bedroom. I don't want to make this long, so without further delay, let's do this.

    To be honest, I'm still not happy. I'm still devastated. I guess you know why. I know some of you will say that I exaggerate my feelings but, what should be the purpose of this blog? To say that I'm happy even if I don't? Like, come on! I know some people will say that I'm a "sad boy", but hey boys ain't perfect too. Also, I'm still bitter. I think that is a normal response when you are heartbroken, other than being sad and devastated. I know she said that I need to be busy, so I could forget what happened but, even if I'm busy, I'm still thinking that one Friday night. Like I mean, every time, I guess. I know I always said I'm used to be rejected but, that hurts. Both of us became heartbroken instead of just me. But, to be clear, I want to just straight up forget my feeling for her. I don't want to have bad blood on a friend. Speaking of a friend, I want to share with you my question for my friend who knows things in love.

    Last night, I talked to my classmate because I want to ask about my past blog. I don't say this in the past blog but, that is really my question to her on forgetting feelings to a friend. She told that it's about being happy, accepting that it's just a one-sided love, and not talking to her. All of which are based on her own experiences. The first one is easy for me. I always think positive (I guess 70-95% of the time), but the next two, hmmm, it's too hard. The first one being she is one of my readers, I want to help her in her studies (remember, she a friend) and I'm a guy who always imagines. I also asked about how to accept that bitter thing, she said that it's hard but you just need to straight-up accept that and never think of it. That two things though, it's super difficult. I am the type of guy who always remembers things so it's hard for me to forget. To be honest, it's easy to forget but, it's hard to accept some sh*ts in your life (sorry for the word).  

    Okay, my intentions for writing this blog are to release my feelings (just like what my Grade 10 crush talked about {shoutout to her}) and to have a closure of my feelings to her. My message to her is I understand that you are always busy. I'm sorry to bother you every night, just like what I've said before, I'm just used to talk to you every night. If you are offended by this blog, I'm very sorry. I just said the real truth about my feelings right now. Thank you for saying real things to me. I want to let go of my feelings even if you are one of the best girls that I've met, other than my mom and my sister. Your the best thing that I couldn't have. I hope you will find a great boy for you. I'm just one chat away. For the last time, I love you.

    Wow. What a blog. I have fired up my spirits again. As I say repeatedly, I hope you will love and appreciate this. Thank you for reading. Remember, God is good all the time. Peace. Love. See you at the next blog. Adios.

Your Guy,

Ramueeeeeeeeeel

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